Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Today was fun. I didn't fall asleep until sometime after 2am I'm sure so when I had to rise after 5 I was def not bright eyeyed and bushytailed. I have only opened by myself like twice at work. Nobody else likes closing and I guess they take it for granted that I'm good at it, so I've been working like every nite. Of vourse goin home at 9 is nothing compared to latenite closing at 'the bux', so its fine to me.
Anyway I went to work and did the stuff I remembered openers doing. When my coworker came in later, he was on some 'you didn't do anything' crap. I really wasn't in the mood for it, since a) I've never had a real training/orientation/ anything besides observing everybody for like a day or two and then just goin to work, and b) I just saw the new sched somebody else waited til like 2days before it actually starts and not only do I not only do I not get 1 day off this weekend (which I need if I'm ever gonna do this volunteer/crew work I'm trying to get on, and even more fun, I gotta work on thanxgiving?
Like I get I'm in the hospitality sector and that's weekends, nights, holidays, etc. And of vourse I'm the newbie so everyone else got their request in b4 me, but I seriously don't even see thre point of me being there. Real restaurants are open on thanxgiving, the resort even is hostong a thanx event, I seeeriously doubt anyone is gonna come in after 4pm to get a sandwich or bag of chips, and if they were they certainly would understand a note on the door saying we were leaving early.
Working thanksgiving day is one thing but not even geting home until like 9 is really kinda shitty. Maybe its just the mmood I'm in. Everythings kinda crud right now. I'm sitting in tire kingdom paying like $80 to replace one tire on my car that went flat this week.
Whatev. I know I'm blessed and have a lot to be thankful for, and I am. I'm just kindof in a funk right now. I need something to look forward to
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I asked my mom to get tickets, but she wouldn't. 1 tour, only ran 3 years. Litterally every super talented female musician on the planet: sheryl crow, sarah mac, stevie nicks, paula cole, fiona apple(?), indigo girls, melissa etheridge, lauryn hill(?) And it came to ft lauderdale at least once.
And you know why we didn't go?
Cuz some (ASSHOLE) that she worked with said it was just a bunch of lesbians!
Putting the irony of this aside for a second... wtf?! No it wasn't it was women who effing rawwwked! Proceeding to rawk out, with the proceeds goin to women centered charities.
And some asshole made that sound like a bad thing that you should be scared to take your 12 yr old daughter to.
I think everyone should have taken their teenage daughters to lilith fair. Then we would all rawk today (and maybe I woulda met somebody hot and realized I like girls way earlier, lol.
Also, 18 yrs ago I really wanted to see the new kids on the block when they came to toen but my mom didn't take me (there was probably no threat of lesbianism, just expensive as hell tickets for a five year old). I think it should have my parent pay for tickets to the nkotb reunion tour. Perhaps if they'd taken me the first time id have been so smitten with donny and danny, id never have notice girls...j/k (though I did see danny in aventura mall, and almost wet my pants lol)
The moral of the story is:
Sarah mac laughlin is hotter than I ever noticed
I still would marry a new kid on the block (preferably danny wood or donnie walberhg (omg, my kids' uncle would be Marky Mark, how rad?!)
My gaydar is as bad as it was in jr high (tru storyH I'm reading 17mag. There's an anti fur peta ad w melissa etheridge and some woman laying there naked sayin '"'d rather be naked than wear fur". I asked my bestest 'why the hell eth is w this naked broad?' She says 'duh, dude that's her wife.' I was like her whaa? A few more friends have answered my idiocy: 'her wife dude, she's gay'.
The most ignorant staement I've ever made followed: "melissa Etheridge is gay!? Whaaa? Since when?" I had honestly never heard this but I loved her album when I was little. What was the name of that one... hmmm 'Yes, I Am'
Yeah, young rad was pretty oblivius. Somethings never change.
Monday, November 17, 2008
See? I didnt have anything to say, not at all.
I'm so glad I have tommorow off.
"I feel a sleep comin on cuz, a real sleep comin on cuz...zzzzzz there it was.."
Friday, November 14, 2008
I can't hear you too well,
you have to repeat youself
So you lean close
Not like the drinks,
or the shots we had,
those... just went to my head.
This has gone somewhere else.
been this drunk.
You lean closer
but don't say anything...
and what you don't say
Your lips talk to me
you brush your nose past mine
I'm NEVER speechless.
But I can't remember lips this soft
Can't remember another mouth
speaking to me like this.
You rest your head against mine
And I can't hear the loud music anymore
But I can only hear you.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
In other news...
I keep seeing these ads for applebee's and ruby tuesday with their little 2 for $20 type deals enticing us eaters to save them from chapter 11 status or widespread closures. More than an indicator of consumer spending and our economy, I find these new deals have me questioning my social/dating/relationship status.
As someone who'd like to think they are fiscally responsible, I can certainly appreciate the savings provided by these meal deals. But if all I cared about was saving, I could just stay home and eat. As someone who prior to this finacial downturn ate out all the time (that's what SHE said, heh) with friends, family, or significant others, I don't have much desire to chow down on these copycat menus that I've already tired of.
Nope. As irrational as it seems to me, when these ads first caught my eye, all I could think was "I wish I had someone to share that meal with".
I mean I've been doin my own thing for a little while now. Single and mingling. 'Pimpin aint easy'..etc, etc, insert cliche comment here. I've avoided all the aspects of relationships that I found annoying or as I prefer 'stupid', by just not having any relationships (Is that as dumb as it sounds?). I've been content with 'friends with benefits' or dating here and there when someones caught my attention long enough that I felt I could be bothered with them. Of course, I realize how dysfunctional that practice is since dating people you enjoy being with shouldn't be looked at as bothersome.
In all this time, I have not been lonely. I'm quite content with my social life being made up of being social with friends and kin. I don't wanna do it forever though. I do miss the romantic. I mean, I don't consider myself 'romantic', I just like doing nice stuff and making the person I'm with happy. (Mack that I am,) I think I'd rather romance than be romanced. I'm certainly better at giving than getting (she said that, too).
I just haven't felt like being in a relationship. I'm not averse to relationships, I just haven't wanted one in a while. I'm quite capable of love, and dare I say it being 'in love' (I do have an aversion to our society's quickness and callousness with the term, though). I KNOW that I'm capable of lust, as its something I struggle with everytime I get a new crush, or the right person looks my way, or I catch a whiff of a certain perfume...I could go on and on (...too easy...should I even bother?).
I think I am most intrigued by these '2 entree, 1 appetizer'-type combos because they bring out what 2 yrs of mingling/pimping/chilling/chillaxing/playing the field ( or any other cheesy-whack terminology I've used to descibe being single) have yet to...
Every now and then,
wish there was someone across the table to share the sampler with...
Monday, November 10, 2008
G.I. Jane is on tv right now so I've lost all train of thought...
Oh yeah.. I heart my bffs. I've been stressin over havin this serious dope chit chat with them. And each 1 I talk to makes it easier and easier... And the revelations that have come from it... Wow. So awesome.
In conclusion, all is well in Rad Land and .... ok back to gi jane...